Yeah, I know

Man, I have been so busy lately. This is the time of year for me though. Been working on the #coast_to_coast on SorceryNet's site. You can check it out here. Should get things calmed down enough again to blog soon. At least I will have some extra dinero in my pocket for Christmas!

IRC

I love DALnet but the latest rounds of DDoS attacks by some little lamers who are mad with IRC have totally ruined my chatting experience. These attacks are the lamest of the lame since all these pimply-faced little fruits do is download a proggie and point and click! How impressive. A three year old could accomplish this. I think it is time for them to take their hands off their mouses and go back to the chronic pud-pulling that would probably relieve some of this pent up anger.

I do NOT hate Canadians!

Oh my.. I had better clear this up. I just said that the PLACES where I have lived here have been less than friendly and I have had a lot of negative things said to me about being American. On the flipside.. my bf is Canadian and I love him as well as my friends and their families. I just said that there have been more than a few bad apples spoiling the bunch.

Proving My Point

Just found this in my referrer log. Nice search string there buddy. Americans are stupid? Well, I think what is stupid is the fact that you do not seem to have enough intelligence to know the difference between "no" and "know". Geesh. You are certainly an impressive ambassador for your country.

Nyte with Kira_Nerys
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I'm Back!

After a couple of weeks of sporadic blogging, it looks like I will be back to my old ways of being a blogging fool!

I have been dealing with a lot lately. Fighting a bit of "the blues" and homesickness. I think that I will be returning to the States in the very near future. That is both good and bad since I know that all in all I will be happier there but I will be leaving behind a boyfriend who I love dearly. I know that he is very interested in moving with me, but it would mean a seperation for a while and that scares me. I have done the long distance thing before and it has never ever worked out very well. Actually, never worked out at all. I need to just keep reminding myself that he is his own person and cannot be held responsible for what others have done to me in the past. Ah, baggage is a wonderful thing.

Don't get me wrong, Canada is a perfectly nice place. Just doesn't fit me. I don't feel comfortable here. Sounds silly to say it, but the culture shock for me has just been too much. Everyone is in a hurry and there are no hellos. People do not take the time to learn your name at the supermarket. If your car has a flat, nobody stops to help, but if they do, they don't just "help" with the jack, they charge for it. People are too distant and there is no sense of community. It is better in the little town that I live in now than it was when I lived in Kitchener. My apologies to those of you who like it there, maybe I just met the wrong people. All I ever heard was "stupid American" and the rest of the people just frowned all the time. I am sorry, but people who think that Americans look down on Canadians are sorely mistaken. We think of Canada as "kind" not "weak". I have had my car keyed with "Fuck U.S.A." because I still had my Florida tag. It has been miserable in that respect.

Do I think this is typical of Canada? No. I think there are good people, it just seems that I missed the majority of them.

I also feel the need to be near family. I have always beeen independant and I have lived in various parts of the U.S. I found this feeling I get from Canada in the Northwest when I lived there as well. I am so longing for the cotton fields and grits. For please and thank you and yes ma'am and no ma'am. For the friendly smiles of strangers or the farmer who waves as you drive by. I long to drive through the city and not see a strip club. Real pecan pie and hot boiled peanuts. I long for home. I know that in reality, i may not go back there immediately, but instead to rural upstate New York. Still, no strip clubs there and small communities that know your name. It is where I was born and it would be nice to start my healing with the first plae I called home.

Friday Five

From FridayFive.org

1. Were you raised in a particular religious faith? - My family was never really religious. Methodist is the church that we went to on special occasions. Some Sundays my mother and I would go. I have noticed that there are no Methodist churches in any of the places in Canada that I have been. I wonder if "United" is what we call United Methodist.

2. Do you still practice that faith? Why or why not? - Nope. I do not believe in the bible at all really. I think the stories are nice, a great guide to learn and live by, but I do not believe it was factual. Maybe based on some historical facts, but much of it just a way to control the masses. It is very well known that the bible has been changed many times to fit the ruler of the day. Kind of like playing telephone as a child. The story gets pretty diluted when you get to the end. It is not the religion I doubt, but the book. I think all religions try to explain the unknown and what we go through in life. I am certain that we are more than physical beings, but that any guide that advocates the roles of men vs. women etc. instead of guiding you to enjoy your free will is just not for me.

3. What do you think happens after death? - I believe that some of us are reborn immediately to learn more life lessons. Our next life is a direct reflection on how we lived the previous one. I also believe that some spirits lose their way and that is why we have "ghosts".

4. What is your favorite religious ritual (participating in or just observing)? - I find that meditation is the best. I also enjoy Christmas for the spirit of it.

5. Do you believe people are basically good? - Yes. We just notice the bad ones more.

Becoming Me

I am 29 years old. Not old, but old enough to have found myself by now. I haven't. I am still living for others, still putting myself of the back-burner while life passes me by. It is not fair to me and in turn, it is not fair to the people that care about me the most.

I had a revelation yesterday. In the midst of the chaos, eggs on the floor and the broken plate shattered at my feet, it is time to deal with me. Deal with my wants and needs and to stop settling.

Danielle is important. I have to keep telling myself that. I need to stop backing down and stand up for what I want and need. Will this hurt some feelings? Maybe. Will this change my life? Definitely. Is it worth it? Hell yeah.

That Damned White Stuff

Friday, Nov 1
Rain or snow
High 7°C Low -1°C Wind 20 km/h NW P.O.P 60%

Saturday, Nov 2
A few flurries
High 1°C Low -2°C Wind 15 km/h NW P.O.P 40%

Monday Funnies

Truth is sometimes stranger, not to mention funnier, than fiction.

Eat your undies, pass go and avoid jail.
I know you have heard of Al Coholic and Ben Dover, but this takes it to a new level.
Give Granny a bike, this is what you get!
This is definitely a bonus when looking for a new home.
I say keep the cat!
No making CRACKS about this show!

Mt. Etna Erupting!

Click here to see the live web cam of Mt. Etna. Updates every 30 seconds.

Perfect Day

I have decided what my perfect day would be. Perfect in the sense of fantasy of course.

I would have to be snowed in at some beautiful mountain lodge. Snow falling outside the large picture windows. The fire would be roaring and I would be wearing a really comfy nightshirt. The tv would have Star Trek on. Deep Space 9 is my favorite, but I would accept a Picard, Kirk, or Janeway. (Maybe even Enterprise, but I would have to try to get into that one.) I would be fed buttered popcorn by Vin Diesel who would be only wearing some very nice silk boxers. If his hands got greasy, I would have no problem licking them clean and seeing where that may lead.

I Want to Eat Your Brain

Please click HERE to let me eat your brain and so you can eat some of your own.

Art Bell Retiring

Could it be the real end this time? Is he really serious to leave at the end of the year or sooner? Art Bell announced tonight that he will be retiring due to his debilitating back problems, at the end of this year. I am going to cry. But, there is a light at the end of this tunnel: George Noory will be taking over. I send the best of wishes to Art, and to George on both of them taking the next step in their lives!

Amazing Race 3

I am cringing once again in embarrassement. I mentioned to a few friend last week that I hoped that Teri and Ian would get eliminated because they are nothing but two annoying, rude, and embarrassing people giving Americans even more of a bad name. I am talking the stereotypical rude Americans. I first got the sick feeling when Ian was speaking to the Mexican cabbie like he was nothing more than a lowly slave. Tonight while calling a cab he made even more of an ass out of himself. Don't get me started on how he treats his wife. She just sits back and takes it. If that was my husband.. well, he just wouldn't be my husband. My boyfriend's mother has just finished a 38 day trip across Europe and she has mentioned that everytime she tells people that she is Canadian, other travellers say "I could tell you are not American! You are not rude or loud." People like Ian and Teri just perpetuate that stereotype and it saddens me that they are not only travelling the world making complete asses out of themselves, they do it on a television show seen around the world. I live in Canada and as an American, I am always careful to try and show that not all of us are pushy. I am a representative of my country whether I like it or not. Oh well.. I have these two trolls mucking up the rest of the world for me.

Tonight, Heather and Eve were eliminated for just being stupid. They did not read their clue, and instead of following the clear instructions of "walking" to the pit stop, they rode in a cab. Ok, this could be just a simple mistake, but these two lawyers-to-be saw that it said "walk" while they were in the cab, and instead of turning around and doing it right, they chose to stay on in the cab. Harvard law students? Oh wait, Harvard Law Grads? This does not bode well for them being able to read the fine print in a contract. Stupidity!